Below are the 18 most recent journal entries recorded in Tameron's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, December 6th, 2006
2:27 am	Up late at the Lab I'm doing some homework here at Marston 112, one of UMass' many computer labs. I'm very close to the end of my undergraduate career, close enough in fact that they let me participate in the funny square hat festival last Spring. Thing was though, I was five credits short (even after 6 years) so I had to come back to finish the last three classes. It was a geotech lab, a physics lab and an art requirement. So I'm passing these now and this other problem has cropped up. See, I was paying for my schoolin' with a mix of work study, loans and scholarships, with some support from my Dad, too. But Federal loans require you to be at least part time, aka, six credits. Who knew? So I'm finally finishing my degree, and ta da, I have an outstanding balance of $1,785. The University won't give me the diploma until I pay them, which I understand completely. Fair is fair. I however, must procure proof of my validity as a member of society from said institution of higher learning so that I can join an engineering outfit. If I can land a job fairly soon, I will be able to pay the bill, get the diploma and begin paying off the rest of my student loans, which total upwards of about $24K, $35K or so if you count the interest. The inverse of selling out is buying in. A brief tirade about money: I take a great deal of solace in the fact that our entire civilization is based on the "I'll pay you double if I can pay you later principle." What's my own personal debt compared to the trillions we collectively owe everyone else? Literally, trillions! I vaguely suspect that the net worth of Earth is, at best, constant. While I realize that money is simple a model of authority to direct and command, I must wonder where everyone thinks the money actually comes from. You can't spend money on goods, only services. A pound of copper can not take your money. It's the way we organize labor. Only a more efficient system to tell people when to be where, doing what will replace currency. It's a tall order, but it will happen eventually. That was my favorite part about the pilot episode of Star Trek: Next Generation. </tirade> So, the long and the short of it is that I would like to find employment subsequent to my studies here. Apparently, this "job" thing is very popular. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 11th, 2006
12:56 pm	It's been a while... I'm over at Kiernan's; he and Jaime noticed that I haven't written in a long time, so I figured I'd bring it up to date real quick. I'm finishing up at UMass, almost done. There's a few more credits as incomplete classes which I must satisfy, then I can actually be done! Hurray! I'm pretty psyched for that, obviously. Civil Engineer in the house! The thing is that can't really do anything else, like going to Colorado for the Gathering. My final year at UMass was focused on a project with Engineers Without Borders. We are building a water system in Kenya. I spent Spring Break there as part of a five person site assessment team. We went to gather the data we'd need to design a clean drinking water supply. It's for a village, Namawanga, in the Western Province (northwest of Lake Victoria, near Uganda). There are about 3000 people in the village, who drink surface water which can make them sick with typhoid, cholera, or worse. I'm also still studying zero point energy. I've got a lot of people in my life who are working with me on this. It's great to be part of a team, finally! They're good company, and it makes everything easier. There are two groups, one is a formal organization; I just met with their lawyer. The other is more of a club that is considering getting formalized into some kind of appropriate structure. Preliminary tests seem to indicate that overunity operation of a ZPE generator is possible. I'm still on the leadership council for DNE. We're thinking of buying OMNI! Ultrawoot! I would love it if we settled down and had the opportunity to really dig in. This Shout out to, well, first of all everyone in the room with me at the moment: Gwen, Jess, Jaime and K-dog. Ana gets extraspecial mention for worrying about whether or not I made it home last night, SO sweet, aw. Alright, it's breakfast time and I'm out of News. Mwahaha + Teeheehee Peace out (and in) Current Mood: content Current Music: The faint percussion of keyboards (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 22nd, 2004
1:35 pm	I am stuck in flux I'm sitting in the library. I should, in order to continue my social advancement, be doing any one of the myriad projects that school endlessly heaps upon us aspiring academic types. I'm not. I know why too. I still feel like a kid. I can sense this impending adulthood. I am changing and becoming more like a vision I have of myself. It's a more serious, contemplative person. It's a vision of someone who can get things done when intended. I am not doing my homework because this change isn't to that stage yet. It's taking a long time. I feel like rushing it, like pushing against the natural flow of things but I know that this would just frustrate me, at best, and at worst, invoke the scorn of the great cosmic tides of fate at my hubris. I have my whole life to live like a kid again, if I can just focus and concentrate, just this once, just 'til I am done. All I have to do is put everything else away, all the lovers, all the games. It's such an act of will, so difficult to say no to fun. How I long to hold my head high knowing that I am in good standing having turned in each and every one of the assignments due. I know I have it in me but I am still insecure. I have felt like an outsider to this mainstream world. Sure I feel at home out on the trails, in the magic land of freedom and love (you know of what I speak, grin with my in our secret) but that does little to assuage my Dean. I want to put my labor of knowledge first, but that doesn't feed that little hunger, that whisper in my ear that says I don't fit in. I run from my books to calm myself and reassure an awkward voice in me that I am desirable, that I am worthy of respect and affection. It looks so shallow and petty written here on my screen. I suspect that there are deeper layers than I have yet probed. Don't we all do what we do out of base animalistic instincts in a sense, as Freud proposed? Maybe it is that I have a resentment against the entire society I find myself a part of. I admit, the idea of contributing to the Gross Domestic Product is slightly unappealing. Yet every moment awake brings me closer to this person I want to be. Just the will to keep my eyes open, that's enough to prove my intention. Each assignment make me more a student. each jog make me more an athlete. Each character I type makes me more of a writer, the ones I don't look at the keyboard for count extra. Now to describe my mood... Awake fits, kinda, busy is what I want to be, contemplative works, determined there's a word for you! Hopeful, but isn't that everyone, all the time, according to Pandora? It would be Optimistic to say I will be Productive, I like that. Current Mood: determined (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, September 11th, 2004
1:05 pm	Back at Umass I am here again, gearing up for another thrill packed semester with my 24,000 homies of academia. I'm going to get good grades, start a local chapter of Engineers without borders, complete the MEG and apply to grad school. It's exciting to think about being done and moving on to the next phase of life! Summer was awesome! Cali and the Rainbow were amaizing! The crew was Ben, Azana, Amy, Elizabeth and Jonah. Sorry we missed eachother Anna! Next time! After that, Ben and I went to my dad's land in Oregon! I love Oregon! Paradise! I taught a games workshop in Amherst for a month, living with my friends Colin and Liana at their mom, Alisande's, house. That's my idea of a fun job! The pay was good too! I went to my very first Rainbow Gathering outside of the US in August. It was the first Turtle Island Rainbow. It was small and focused, in Ouebec. I want with Ben and Joanna [Chibz]. Ben sent Joanna and I back with his car because he wanted to stay longer. I came back and got ready for Camp, but I got in a car accident with Ben's car (sorry!!!). No one was hurt and there wasn't any mechanical damage, just a big dent. Then, since I needed the ride, I drove to DNE in it, which bothered Ben much wore than having gotten in the accident. I will be paying him back for a while, but I can because I worked doing the games workshop! DNe was awesome. I found myself being taken seriously as a leader by my teachers and mentors. I left two days early to escort a guy that had an emotional breakdown back home. I got to see Azana (you rock ever harder) and my Grandma, Judith (and her 2nd husband Hanon) since I was in Manhattan. Well, that's where I am at these days. I like being 23, that's how old Einstien was when he published Relativity (no pressure though)! Get in touch, this means y'all, Tameron (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 24th, 2004
11:22 am	Heh, funny thing about huge posts on obtuse topics... Sorry about that... It's just been on my mind and I am going across the great sky road tomorrow. Thanks for reading! (Comment on this)
Monday, June 21st, 2004
7:22 pm	Ether: Using the Doppler effect as a rebutal to the Michalson-Morelly findings This paper claims to question Michalson and Morelly's findings regarding the nature of spacetime and the speed of light, using the Doppler effect. It is motivated as a search for an alternative source of power. The term Ether, defined as a medium in space that conducts light waves, is a pariah to conventional physics and preconceptions regarding it must be set aside. Maxwell's four equations governing the behavior of magnetics and electricity came from the mathematics of fluids. In his theory, Magnetic waves such as light were carried through space by a substance, like sound is carried by air. Michalson and Morelly devised a test of this idea using the following assumtions: There could be currents in the substance as there could be a current in a river. Ripples and waves would be washed in the directions of the current in an analogous fasion. The ripple's distorion in the direction of the current would affect the speed of the wave, increasing it "downstream" and decreasing it "upstream." It was also assumed that the earth would be moving in relationship to the substance. The earth was hypothesized to be traveling through this substance. The substance was through to be fixed in space relative to the sun. In this model, observers on earth facing east would be looking up or into a current as they spun through it and observers facing west would be looking down current. Light clocks were set up to measure the speed of of light in each direction. This was expected to discern the direction and speed of our motion relative to the conducting medium of light. None was found. LIght speed was constant in every direction and the theory of ether, after much discusion between, amongst others, Einstein and Tesla, was abandoned. This rebutal relys on the discovery that starlight changes color depending on the star's motion toward or away from our planet, named after Doppler who pioneerd the idea in relation to sound. This "red-shift" and "blue-shift" indicatce a change in the freqency of the light, rather than a change in the speed of light. The Michalson morelly experiments were conducted at rest, in an inertial reference frame. If the assumption that we are moving relative to the ether is questioned and instead it is assumed that if we are at rest, then we are not moving relative to the ether within us, then motion relative to the ether is defined as acceleration. Acceleration, being motion relative to the local ether become the new predicted requirement for a compression of a wave in the medium. This compression in a wave in the medium is the observed Doppler effect. The higher the freqency of light, the longer the distance traveled along the path of the waves in a given linear, transverse distance. Since the transverse speed is constant, it's speed along it's path must be greater without affecting the transverse speed. To be Continued... <3 Tam ps looking hard for peer review! (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 19th, 2004
12:58 pm	Cause I'm Leaving, On a Jet Plane I do know when I'll be back again though. I'm heading to San Fran on the 25th. We'll get up to the gathering as the flow allows. We'll be at Rainbow til the 7th or so. After that, we're going to my dad's farm near Eugene, OR. Return flight from SF on the 13th... In other words, I plan on being remarkably out of touch for about three weeks... I'm going to be in the Amherst area after that until DNE. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
4:31 am	So I'm teaching trig... over AIM at about 4:33 and GNU is kicking my butt at Go (Baduk) and I think, hey this would make a cool post... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 16th, 2004
4:50 am	Airfair cheaper than cars, in other news large numbes of people working hogether overcome huge techn ical difficulty. How did that happen? Planes use this super fuel and airports are as expensive a thing as there is to make, but the economy of scale still wins out over these hurdles. So, I am touching down in about a week in SF. If any of you are looking for directions and other stuff that's good to know... check reply... (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 13th, 2004
7:34 am	Siblings, cities, theater, starfaring... I just gotten home from three wonderful days hanging out with my brother, Robin. Yes, I know you didn't know I had a brother. I have a sister too (Eden). NYC is crazy. It's just so many people in so little space. "The millionares' island fortress" is still rockin' like a hurricane. Boston only ever seems mellow to me after a Now York trip. I also saw Joanne, who, like Robin, sent love to Joni. She gave me directions to the Rainbow, which I will repost here. I saw Judith, my grandmother, and he husband Hanon. They are in the process of having a theatre built on 49th St. between 8th & 9th Av. for their company, The Living Theater. The Living has played some of the greatest political performances of all time, and I'm not just saying that... check it out if you like that kinda stuff. I tried to get in touch with David & Michelle and Sarah, but they never called back, oh well. Time for a Leadership Council meeting... lotsa fun. Directions to Cali Rainbow supplimental. Rule #1 of space travel: Tell the next crew what killed you. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 30th, 2004
10:01 pm	What a great day... I worked all night last night finishing my script; I finally got some sleep as the sun rose. It's a tale of a young man coming of age in a world at war. I chose this theme because it was for a 14th birthday party. Heavy on tthe swordplay, with interludes of mystical introspection, it turned out rather well. So I am up at nine preparing as only a disciple of gaming would... The game was awesome, running about 20 kids aged 8 to 15 ragged all over a huge expanse of hillocked forest that was suited for ambushes. We played sword games and played with the spell system as an appetizer. The Game went wonderfully. The story characters played it all to the hilt and the moral came through loud and clear. I'd say it went without a hitch, according to plan... but anyone who has ever run a LARP would see through that as a simple impossibility. I gen paid for this! Wow! In my perfect world, everyone would have summer gigs this fun! Time to sleep! (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 27th, 2004
3:27 am	Al Gore came back from the DEAD!!! Though I have to admit... multiple exclamation points are a habit I have recently decided to kick. Oh, so the point of the post.. right. Wow... ADD is such strong drugs even untreated! Yeah, Al Gore gave a speech at NYU yesterday that rocked house. He called for the impeachment or resignation of Rumsfeld, Wolfowitz, Rice (Condolleza is what I think Vampire Overlords should be modeled after from now on) and three other high level Bushites who's names escape me at the moment. He condemned the torture going on Iraq. He showed how it was caused by the same degradation of checks and balances that we're dealing with here. Anyway... you should all go find it... MoveOn.org put it on and Cspan ran it twice. Ok, I have to, like, sleep now. TJJ (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 26th, 2004
2:01 am	I'm going to bed earlier! Something about me that I'd like to change... I stay up late even when nothing is going on. I want to be able to discern wether or not it will be worth the night, and the corrosponding lost morning before I stay up... It's a foresight thing. I think that wisdom depends on looking forward in time. The farther one can look in choosing outcomes, the wiser one is. <(^_^)7 (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 25th, 2004
1:04 am	Golly there are a lot of moods! Hi everyone... still aclimating to LJ (neatoland) here... cool cool. You can see a much longer post I put up as a reply to Scarlet Dulcinea 's recent post... Summertime is such a marked contrast to school... This is what I think it would feel like to wake up one day in someone else's life. What a great storm! This morning, lightning struck right nearby... My first words of the day were "What the fck was that?" I seriously thought a bomb had gone off. What a way to start a day! Yay for Quixotc! Current Mood: quixotic Current Music: the rain (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 23rd, 2004
7:37 pm	Dvorak deviance... Hi all! In an effort to mess with my own head, I done gone and switched my keys to the Dvorak pattern. The double incentive to write and rewire my fingers will, I hope, get me journaling more! Ug, ever letter is a mental effort! Time to take a break and look at the keys so I can actually type more than a few lines. I definitely take more care with wy words when I have to remember where each letter is! More to come... Tam (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 22nd, 2004
10:25 pm	Summer time and the livin's easy... Well, here goes! For those of you who keep up on my LJ, you know it's a rare event that I post. I'm in Watertown, at my new digs for the summer with Mareba. Wireless internet and a seemingly endless supply of electricity make this a pretty swank abode. I keep a real world journal too.. It's quite old now, I've been using the same book for about five years. This is because I lost it for three years and besides, I rarely write in the physical journal too. In my last post, I wrote about feeling the need to create. I still feel that way, this is motivated by that feeling. I feel like I have things I need to tell the world, I am sure you, reading this feel that way too... it seems like it would be a universal emotion. Journaling also seems like a good path, a good Way. It seems like a system that I can use to channel some of my sexual energy, otherwise aimless. I want to use this force in me productively, it's so strong and so delicate at the same time... it can build amazing things but it is easy to squander... I am still thinking a lot about my various projects... the trip to the Gathering this year is coming up soon, I am doing a lot of work as a professional gamer, teaching and putting on larps. I still have a head full of abstract physics theory... the pressure is only temporarily relieved by telling people about it, perhaps I can find peace though publishing. I will really make an effort to post more... and grow in the manner that will enable me to get as much done as I think I am capable of. So many things to do... immortality would still find me bustling. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 7th, 2004
2:41 am	Later that night... So I had a bit of an epiphany brushing me teeth just now... it's just that I need to create. I made a resolution to focus this year, but now I know it's not just a generic focus... it has to build. Writing, learning, listening... it's all about putting things together, people especially... I traced the thought back to something my Dad said to me after I came back from Philly in August of 2000... He said that the strongest force in the universe was creativity. I think he was quoting the I Ching. Well, this is me dedicating myself to that power. Word up. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 6th, 2004
3:34 pm	I'ts been a while Aloha Y'all, This is my first post in more than a year or something... I'll start using Live Journal again, just like I am going to start using my meatworld journal agian too! my new year resonlution is to focus on what's really important in my life, and you, my friends are what much of that. It's still vacation, I'm here in Newton taking it easy, finally having time to do stuff like this! And that! And this again! Well, let me know if you read this. I'm still jsut getting the hang of it. Peace out!!! XBD> (3 Comments |Comment on this)